Ryan

Life

2009-07-27T08:22:00.000-07:00

Okay~ I felt so lead to write something in my blog. Well, firstly, just want to talk about what have happened over the past few days. From friday till today, I have been attending my granny's wake at Ang Mo Kio. It was a sad time for my entire family. Relatives and cousins are all there. It is through the death of someone in the family that things sometimes will crop up. For me, my late granny, Low Ah Loi, passed away, things starts to resurface into my life. Things which I should have done all along.

Firstly, it is the way of life. Every single person only have this period of time to live. And sometimes life is short. So I should really spend my time wisely. Make 100% use of the time I have while I am still alive. While people are wasting their time over other things in the world, I rather use my time to glorify God and to help others. What better joy is there to see someone's life being changed. Even it is just 1 person but 1 person's life change is better than 1000 life that stays the same.

The other thing which I find that I really need to do is that I need to spend more time with my extended family. For example, my grandparents. I don't want to lose my grandparents without really knowing them. Regretting it at the very last moment and living with that regret for the rest of my life? nope. I will never do that~

Yawn..

I should find an earlier time to blog next time. This time is just too damn tiring to blog..

Another day then~

love,
Ryan =D

Fathers' Day?? LOL

2009-06-20T18:33:00.000-07:00

I think he is not using his mind and think. Think!! Just a simple thing to do. Call me lazy? Say that I am a lazy person. What crap is he talking about when he say that I am not lazy when I am doing the things I want to do? Like duh! Everyone won't be lazy to want to do the things they want to do. In fact, I am no longer considered lazy because I am at least doing something. Not lazing around at home watching time flies.

Haiz.. I guess you will never know what I am doing. Can't really blame him. Not as understanding as my mom.

Someone please define Lazy!

1. averse or disinclined to work, activity, or exertion; indolent
2. causing idleness or indolence
3. slow-moving

Am I? Firstly, I go out and do stuff. Serve in Ministry. Make new friends. AND MIND YOU I DO STUDY IN SCHOOL! What crap is he talking about when he say Im lazy. When you say Im lazy, I wonder if he still knows me or not! Come on! Telling him I am going out late at night and he just tell me not to go around drinking and stuff.

COME ON MAN!! Christian yo Christian! The most basic of Christians is that they don't go around Drinking man!!! Haiz.. HAIZ...

HAPPY FATHERS DAY DAD!! HUMP!

B & C Zone Camp

2009-06-15T18:05:00.001-07:00

2nd day of camp. 9.05am in the morning. Prayer meeting is canceled for the sole reason that everyone is still asleep. Things are going slowly. At the Alfresco sitting down, took deep breath of fresh air as it breezed by..

Hello! Just another mindless wondering of my mind as I do nothing on my computer. Zhi Yi just left me at the Alfresco. And I am all alone here typing away at my own computer blogging away.. Seriously, I am just blogging nuts. Blogging with no intention of blogging in mind. Just crapping in my blog. Yeap.

Oh ya. I can talk about camp the first day. It was no doupt fantastic. Reached at 11.00am to help out for the Administration side of the Camp. But all I did was to stone at the Cafe, walking around and simply doing nothing. Than its time for amazing race. Amazing Race was exciting. We travelled all around Singapore getting clues from different people. Okay, maybe not all but main places are Paya Lebar and City Hall. People to get our clues from are Guo Wei, Alvin Low, Ang Lek Fong and some other people whom I cannot remember their names. Yeah.

Image this that we only took the MRT to City Hall and we travelled all the way to Bugis, to the Padang and took and MRT from Bugis to church. All walking and no other means of transport. Its siong but fun.. Lol.

Also want to talk about this boy Kenneth. Quite a cool boy. Thinking of getting to know him more. Maybe not someone my CG is EVing but why not help out. We are still a body of Christ right? Amen!

Love,
Ryan

Generational Curse

2009-06-11T10:09:00.000-07:00

I am a guy of my word for this! No one will finally know what I write on my blog already. This is because I HAVE REMOVED THE LAST LINK TO HERE! My MSN!! Hahaha.. Now only close friends and very close friends will know. Those that have linked me to their blog! Hahaha..

I think examinations are not that bad after all. Once you know how examinations are like, you will not feel like how I felt just now. Like how the entire world is above you. Telling yourself that your life is rotten. What you chose for your future job is a whole book of worthless engineering formulas. Thats how I feel.

Its a complicated feeling. If you are me and you entered Engineering as your course, and knowing that all your friends who are in different course who have graduated like in arts, having a grand graduation and showcasing their final work. You start to realize, what will I get once I graduated? If I have a graduation showcase, what will be in my showcase? F=ma? Formulas? Thats like crap man..

The thought of it just pulls me down. Big time. I want a good graduation. I don't want some normal graduation. For every part of your life, you cannot get it back. Once it is gone, its gone. And when you finish one phrase of your life, you will follow that path whether you like it or not. A Diploma in Mechatronic Engineering is surely gonna make me an engineer working for other people. Not me. Totally not me.

I am going to break the chain of evens coming up in the future.. I am going to look back at this blog post and tell myself that what I am reading now is true. That when I study Engineering, I won't be an Engineer in the future! I am going to be an Entrepreneur! WAIT AND SEE!

Lifes Complication

2009-06-09T04:53:00.000-07:00

I think I should start blogging again. Like I said before. No point making a blog in the first place if I don't have the intention to continue blogging. Maybe now that there will be lesser or no readers who reads my blog, I think just writing with the knowledge that no one is reading will really help me express myself more in my blog. Im sure what I say is true.

Currently in the examination season and examinations is a phrase of my life where things will stur up in my mind. What a complicated thing the mind is. For me myself, I think that I am a very thinking person. Every single time I am alone and have nothing to do, my mind will just start thinking of things. Things concerning myself. Ministry, family, friends and school. The worst thing that can happen is that something will just crop up in my mind. And when that happen, it will be placed in my mind and the next time I have nothing to do, I will start to thing about it. If my thoughts ends up well, it will have positive results. I will be encouraged. But when it ends up badly, I think I will be emo. The mind is a very tricky thing.

Sometimes the reason why I thought of doing so many thing and actually fill myself with work is so that I will be occupied and not think of things. Call me a workaholic but I think I am not. Its just that I just want to stop thinking of such things. Should I do just that? Alot of people did say before that I am a person who thinks alot. I totally agree with them. There are more things that goes through my mind than I can actually do it physically. Some things I thought of is creative stuff and it will come to pass in due time. But the underlying thing is that I think that my mind is my strength and also my weakness. Something which can build me and bring me up a whole new level. It is also something which can pull me down and break me.

The mind is a complicated thing. My life, is complicated. I call this my lifes complication..

Short Post 1

2009-05-25T06:07:00.000-07:00

I just want to revive my blog for once. No point having a blog when I dont blog right? Hmm.. Anyone felt a little different today? I think it is the humility, the weather, everything! I feel tired. Chui and ever more chui than before. I am having the feverish feeling now. Should be the weather. It must be the weather. Urgh.. Not a time to be sick man..

Anyway, Red Rain just passed and I know it have been a great weekend! The Concert Rocked the roof of Heart of God Church! Its exciting!!

Blog @ School 1

2009-04-28T00:17:00.000-07:00

Finally blogging again. Where am I now? I am at Ngee Ann Polytechnic's Library Level 3. A little time I can use to blog. What am I going to blog about this time.. Hmmm..

I know! I shall blog about the idoiticracy of today's lesson. I have had enough! I wonder what I am going to do for the rest of the semester! For odd weeks of school, I have class on tuesday from 12.00pm to 1.00pm followed by a lesson from 3.00pm-5.00pm. But for even weeks, I only have the first lessons which is from 12.00pm to 1.00pm. So considering my traveling time is 1 hour and 20 mins to travel to school. 3 hours of traveling time just for a 1 hour lesson. 1 hour! JUST 1 hour!! Oh man..

Luckly I have something to do later which is a make up lesson in school. If not I would already have skipped the lesson. I am also planning to donate blood later at 4.00pm. Block 16. Anyone care to donate blood with me today? Hahaha. Blood blood blood!! Exciting! Sounds very sadistic. ANYWAY! Hahaha..

Thinking of donating blood at 4.00pm and I just think it will be until 5.00pm. 5.00pm till 6.00pm will be my slack, rest and relax time. And at 6.00pm to 7.30pm will be my Make Up Lesson. Than after that, I am going to go home and do my homework.

Talking about Homework.. I have this very bad habit which is to always have the thought of doing my homework but once it comes to the time for me to do my homework, I will be distracted and in the end, not be doing my homework. Talking about consistancy, I think I am not a very consistent person when it comes to homework! Haha.. Opps! :)

Creativity

2009-04-16T09:25:00.000-07:00

Where does idea come from? Well, I seriously think that ideas/creativity are all Gods creation. It's God creation to bring us above the rest. Make us shine in the marketplace. Gives us the cutting edge to break through in the world of business.

What makes companies excel? New and fresh ideas. Something which no one has seen before. Yes there are risk in doing something new. But there are no risk not worth taking if there is something good that comes out at the end. I want to thank God for giving me a creative mind to think of new things. Things which have never been done before which I will be doing in the future. This things will be in my mind till it comes to pass.

Thank you God! :)

Mass Rapid Transit

2009-04-16T01:35:00.001-07:00

Im on a major project. You can say that I am tired of the Singaporean way. What am I talking about? Im sure all have sat the MRT(in long, its Mass Rapid Transit) before. What I love about the MRT is everything except the thing I am going to mention later. Seriously, the MRT is a great thing and I seriously love it. All but 1 thing. That 1 thing is people.

Imagine with me this. Wait.. You don’t have to imagine this. I think all have encounter this before. ‘Kiasu’ people trying to get in before the train door can actually open fully. This is not so when it is not peak period. Even though it is peak period and people trying to get in, Im still okay with that. But comeon! 3 people at the platform trying to get in? I think its alittle too much! I should do something.

While coming out of the MRT Train today, I encountered the problem today. This time 2 person. 1 standing on each side of the door. Once it opens, they rushed in. So much for the kindness week or month that Singapore is trying to have. ITS NOT WORKING!!

What I had to do? I had to take a deep breath, with my guitar on my right hand, grab it tight and run! Try and run out of the door before I get pushed back in. Its a struggle between the Entering and the Exiting. Its the fiercest battle fought(might be the longest) fought. The Entering versus the Exiting.

You know what I want to do? Youtube! Have you guys seen the videos that people put up? Something to show their unhappiness to a society, a nation or the entire world. This will change the perception of people. Everytime I take the MRT, I will take a 10 sec video on how the people exiting the MRT will look like. Im sure it will raise eyebrowns.

I am going to do just that! But not now.. Haha.. Total waste of time.. Haiz.. Change SINGAPORE! CHANGE!!!

More about this. The Bellagio Fountain. It is just super inspiring. Just watching water dancing along with the music. Wah.. Nice.. I am going to Las Vegas one day. Stay in that Hotel and watch the Fountain and all the different songs and water dances.. That is one of my dreams..

3.0?

2009-04-15T08:52:00.000-07:00

Was at Kopitiam when Wei Jie asked me about my results. I shall not hide it from people. I got 2.1 for my GPA! That is real low. My year 1.1, I got a 2.9. Year 1.2, I got 1.4. Year 2.1, I got 1.5. Year 2.2, I got 2.1. Clearly Im on my way to improvement. Though it might be an improvement, it is still not enough.

I said it! Im going to get 3.0 for this semester. I just know that I can do it. I wrote it out here so in 6 months time, I can see if I will be able to get that. I look back and realized what I have been doing wrong and what are the things I have been doing right. Now, I am going to make lesser mistakes and do my best!

Its all about being smart. Engineering? Its all about listening in class.. I am going to make it!

Anyway, Christopher and me are going to the Bellagio Fountains in Las Vegas one day.. Will blog more about it tomorrow!

Pastoral, Minsitry and Music

2009-04-13T10:42:00.000-07:00

Recently talked to Siok Mei about the wonderful things that have happened to me this year. Shall share it here.. I think this few months, from January to March, God have really showed me the way in which I should go. I think it is a good time for me cause a lot happened in the last 1 and a half years. Ups and downs.

3 things which I want to grow in is Pastoral, Ministry and Music. I found the link in all this 3 things. Ministry and Music, both of them have a common or it will finally link back to Pastoral. Which is rather true. Ministries are there for a purpose. To serve people. Music is there to pull the presence of God down, laying a platform for the Preacher to move(In terms of Worship Team). And when that happens, the Presence of God will come and hearts will start to open. Its all about people people people!

I think each of this 3 things are crucial. 3 very different things but they need to be present inorder for things to go right. It's like a triangle. A Tripod stand. If one of them is missing, the entire Tripod Stand will not be able to stand properly. Its that simple. Everyone of this aspect supports each other.

This is my Mission for the Year. Pastoral, Ministry and Music!

Blessed am I

2009-04-11T12:19:00.000-07:00

I have proclaimed it in Facebook and Twitter already.

I am truly blessed by Pastor's sermon over the last 2 days and is so happy and privilege to have Pastor How and Pastor Lia as my Pastors!

7 things I hate about Christianity

2009-04-10T09:37:00.000-07:00

Good Friday Service was interesting today. 7 things I hate about Christianity. Listening to the header for that day made me interested all of a sudden. Hypocritical and Judgmental. This is the 2 things pastors shared about on Saturday.

One thing which came to me when I heard about the 7 thing, I thought to myself. Am I like those 7 things that Pastor's talked about? I know we ain't perfect peeps and I am sure I have been a Hypocrite before. I have been a Judgmental person before. I have been a lot of things. How will I know if I am not a Hypocrite or a Judgmental person anymore? How do you really tell if there is a change in you? How will you know if people whom are not Christians thinks that you are this yet other Christians things you are otherwise? Putting on a facade?

I think a small part of you is designed to sense all this things. Things like knowing people's feelings and know what others are feeling about you. I don't really know about other people but for me, I do have the feeling. When someone share something with me, no matter what it is, there will be times when I will feel the person. Feel in a sense that I will know how the person is feeling about me. Hmmm..

Min Yang went into HTA at 8.00pm on Saturday. Pray for his wellbeing yeah? It will be his final stretch for the Basic Military Training..

Friends and Foes

2009-04-07T07:31:00.000-07:00

Got a phone call from Min Yang just now at 8.38pm. Guess he might just have completed his training and is a rest and relax time for him. I was rather shock to receive Min Yang's call. Happy yet shock. It really shows a lot to have Min Yang calling me on his first day. I wonder what and who I will call when I enter the army. Nicholas definitely. My parents. Who else?

You know through this small act, it really shows a lot about the friendship I have with the person. Min Yang is really a great friend to have!

Lets talk about something else! Friends and foes!

Having friends, I seriously know that there surely such things as foes. Not that bad. Maybe someone whom doesn't like you as much? Im sure there is. No one is perfect and surely at some point of time, you will confirm irritate someone or give someone a major anger outburst. Some people might know who those people are in their lives. But for me, I really have no idea. Treating everyone as my friend.

But won't you want to know who they are? There is a part in me which I really want to know who hates me or dislike me but what good will that do? Once you know the person dislike you, will you change your perspective against that person? Will you treat the person a little differently? Will you still trust the person or keeping the things you want to say to the person to yourself?

Its a good thought to think about right? Shall end here..

One more thing, you loving people who reads my blog, do pray for Min Yang! He's coming out on Thursday 6.00pm and going back in on Friday 8.00pm. Might be a short period of time but, he still needs our prayer! Lets pray for his well-being! :)

Goats' Milk

2009-04-06T23:57:00.000-07:00

Min Yang is in Home Team Academy today. Send him off at 7.30am and saw Noni, Ah Cai, Swee Wei Jie, Kien Leng and a whole lot more people. Get a chance to enter HTA and say Good Bye to Min Yang. Min Yang, ever so cheerful, when he enter the place, he is still as cheerful. Im sure he is gonna make a different in camp! Haha.

Went in for some free lunch. They provided lunch, nice food, nice soup and ever nice drinks. The environment there is also very nice. Don't even look like a camp at all!

After going to HTA, we went to the Goat Farm like the last time. Kien Leng, Swee Wei Jie and I traveled down a dozen of bus stops to finally arrive the farm. However, this time is kinda different. On a poster.. The visitation of the barn is off limits to all visitors during this period of time to prevent people from getting viral or dieseses.. Something like that! Aiya! Basically, what it say is that, we are not allowed to see the Goats! Booohoo! Thats bad! Real Bad!

Swee Wei Jie was super depressed. No goats to feed. We just bought some Goats milk to drink. So depressing. No chance to thank the goat for the milk. :(

Anyway, Have some photos in my phone. Will upload it once I have the time!

Thoughts on Reception

2009-04-06T08:53:00.000-07:00

Ask me what ministry have I been in and I will say is Reception and Bookstore Ministry. Ask me what ministry I am currently in and I can tell you that I am currently in Reception Ministry. How long? Around 1 year plus.. My first duty was one of the last days in FTMS. I got to touch the magic button which opens the glass doors to enter church for once before we move to SingPost.

If you are wondering what is my reason for joining Reception, you do not have to ask me anymore! I shall tell you now! There are actually a few aspects that cause me to join Reception Ministry. First, I knew that every time a person comes to church on a normal day, the first person he or she will see is the Receptionist. Having to know that, there is a need to give people a good impression of church.

Maybe its me to want to be a Receptionist. I love to serve people and serving people is my passion. Knowing that, through me being a Receptionist, helping people get things, providing things for them, it gave me the satisfaction that I have helped someone and changed his life. That is the driving force that kept me serving in Reception.

Now Reception came to a whole new level for me. Being an IC made me even more busy and it just struck me that I am not only living life and just doing Reception Duty. I need to be looking at the Ministry as a whole. How to bring the ministry to a whole new level? How to keep the ministry running.. How to brighten up the ministry so that there are new things which the Receptionist can do.

Won't it be great if there are new improvement to the Ministry? Games Cafe to be fully integrated to Reception Ministry? One day you will find Receptionist teaching people how to play games.. People having fun playing games. Oh so my dream la.. Its gonna come to past one day! Amen!

Reception Ministry! Wootz

Left4Dead

2009-04-05T10:03:00.000-07:00

Left4Dead is addictive! Whether you like it or not, more and more people are starting to play L4d and they themselves are bringing more people to go play L4D. Its a cycle. Its madness. From a small group, now it became a huge group going to play L4D. Every single week, you will notice at least a group of people in church going to play L4D.

Will we ever get bored of it? This we will need to see by June. If by June, we are still playing L4D, it clearly can show that L4D is not going to die down anytime soon.. But I am stopping. Stopping unless there are valid reasons to play..

Genesis Entry

2009-04-04T11:54:00.000-07:00

Here I am back to blogging. Didn't know this day would come but here it is.. As I was sitting on my bed(I still am), I refurbished my new blog. It looks super cool now. Its now with a new Twitter Update from my Twitter account, a Tagboard and Lady Gaga's Pokerface being the first song in my song list! Ma ma ma ma... Hahas. Thats the intro for Pokerface. Repeat it 3 times! -.-ll

ANYWAY!

Knowing that NO ONE will read it! I will start blogging! Ha.. Nah! Just kidding! Lol

I want to blog about what have been happening in my life this current season. Schools still out meaning that I have plenty of time to slack and relax. No~ Having been going church most of the time. Playing the guitar, doing reception, going for morning prayer meeting.

My current goal for this season is Growth! I want to start doing things! I came to realization. I'm currently having the feeling of, having the urge to do things which you have done in the pass but not now sensation. My dream now if you ask me is to be a Guitarist in the House of God, a Ministry Leader and a Pastoral Leader. Not must yet huh.. Looking at now and my dream, I have a long way to go!

I miss the time when I was doing Pastoral Work. You know what people say about 'Absentism makes the heart grow fonder?' Something like that.. Now, I so desire to go back into doing Pastoral Work. And this time, I see the importance of it in my life and I am not going to stop doing it!

God! Here I am! USE ME!